this morning when i woke up, i saw this bread on the table. my brother wanted to toast two garlic bread for himself but in the end he got two chao-da bread. haa=D

the girlfriends meet up at bernice's house. pretty good. fun and laughter. the five of us laughed like mad girls. setting timer so that we can take pictures together. we even took pictures with her xmas tree. shall upload those photos once biling send me. the book was made by me for the gift exchange and xiaoyuan got it. this year i got the present that biling prepared. its the second year getting her gift already. haa. saturday tmrw and i am workingh 12 to close. it gonna be hell again. zZzZZ.. anyway, bj having gift exchange tmrw. hope everything will go well. time for bed. (:

the dinner with shijia, ryan, may, victor, marcus and minru. (:
kinda lazy to blog actually. haa. sick for the past few days but am feeling better now i guess. going to meet up with girlfriends this friday. (: i dont know when will i get the chance to meet up CJH and TTY. most probably next year? haa. anyway its a public holiday tmrw but i will be working full shift. ZzzZzZ.



it was mum's birthday yesterday so we went to have dinner at the bottle tree village on monday night as i have got class yesterday night. the tree look kinda cute right. haha. (:

hmmmm. as for the tagboard, i dont know how to do. so folks, just give me some time to put it back. haa. ok? (:

i hate the feelings that i am having now.
out to LK.
to be continue..
goodbye..

new love<3.

at the other side, i gonna eat grass for the rest of my days till 28th. lol.

ben sherman; the clothes are nice and the service is very good. thumbs up. (:

back to work tmrw. zZzZz.

mr pear's birthday celebration and movie at plaza sing.

the birthday surprise was funny as we did something really retarded. lol.

we watched the movie; brothers.

it was a nice movie as miao qiao wei is handsome and charming. haa.

had quite a number of activities for the past two to three weeks.

movie, supper, LK, town, kbox, mahjong and donuts! (:

having class later and mum is cooking delicious dinner. (:

why will i start the fruit diet. HAA!

gonna to work from thursday to sunday.

i have to drag myself to work nowaday. damn it.

anyway, i feel so retarded yesterday.

for the very first time, i left my house without bringing my phone. crap.

due to that, i am home and not going out today. thats fate. roar. (nobody will understand this sentence except myself. lol.)

nothing much. update soon. (:

dinner at jocelyn house was great.

steamboat and chilli crab. (:

bowling after dinner. the score was pretty good.

i was contented with my score.

mahjong-ed after bowling.

breakfast after mahjong and after 4 hours of sleep its back to work. goodbye to BJ lockers.

renovation starts tmrw.

busy packing the store for the whole day.

finally, its time for a break. (:

behind the beautiful smile there is always a scar..

BJ

nothing much. photos were taken last saturday.

supper at newton.

geraldine's chalet will be the upcoming event for the next three day.

gonna enjoy myself.

can't wait for 28th. pay day. 16 more days to go.

i guess i gonna get myself new flip flop.

seriously speaking i am tired of my life and work. sigh.

是放弃？还是放下？

Almost Here

Did I hear you right
cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you

I'm close to tears
cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

it's not the same anymore..

if i got a chance, i will like to learn. (:

sick since saturday.

at least i feel better now.

my net was down for a week but its fine now.

got to meet up with geraldine last week. pretty fun and happening. (:

nothing much alrdy i guess.

i try to see the good in life, but good things in life are hard to find..

is it the end?

my little cousin; angie. (:

life is still the same.

working almost everyday.

nothing much to blog about actually,just want to say i am still kicking alive. =D

is it meant to be like this?

shikin's last day at BJ.

photos were kinda unglam but those were the memories..

never ask how long will it last.

as you will never know who will leave your side tmrw.

never ask how far can we walk.

as you will never know what will be stopping us in between.

cherish every moment and remember as much as you can.

tonight i've fallen and i can't get up..

chill chill night at LK.

after work was chilling session at LK.

6 to close at citylink today was alright.

nothing much.

cherish all the things around you as you will never know what will happen the next mintue..

MOVIES.

two movie tickets for last week and two movie tickets for this week so far.

working almost everyday except wednesday.

though i only worked for a few hours, i feel tired.

work again tmrw. afternoon shift. ROARs.

there are some things that we never want to let go of... people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. its the beginning of new life.

THE THREESOME.
the more proper photo among all i guess. lol.
our plan to meet up was tueday but we had an unexpected meet up today. (:
slack around bugis with CHANJUNHON after work at j8.
waited for TEHTECKYONG to finish his class and we went off to marina square for movie.

CHANJUNHON.TEHTECKYONG.LEEHUIYING
those were the days we had..
meeting up at dhoby bustop every morning before class start..
seeing one and another restless and moody face early in the morning..
kicking big fuss about the long awaiting bus 14..
going to suntec and marina square on every wednesday to have our long break..
going to the toy shop to play xbox to kill time(its jst the both of them. lol.)..
we will always be the last to go to the class yet the first to get out of the class..
hanging around at town after class..
eating our favorite chicken rice at the usual place..
i miss those stupid days.. (:

i believe that great mind thinks alike.
the laughter and fun we had.
the jokes that we cracked.
everything that we have shared will always be there..
memories will always stay. (:

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why you calling me so late?

It's kinda hard to talk right now.

Honey why are you crying?

Is everything okay?

I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And, yes, I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

1/2 morning at J8 tmrw.

i hope time will pass fast over there and they will release me on time.

i am kinda tired.

somehow i dont' feel good today.

i guess i need some sleep for now.

i guess i never really moved on..

i got the photos from shijia's blog.

haa. =P

the first picture was taken when the both of us were bored.

it turn out to be a fun and filled with laughter. lol.

the four kids that the both of us look after for three days two night.

anyway, the trip was not so bad. i miss the cold weather. (:

full shift at work today.

monday i had a short meet up with CHANJUNHON.

tuesday i had a short catch up with TEH TECKYONG.

i am praying hard that i can meet CHANJUNHON and TEHTECKYONG next tuesday. (:

work again tmrw. goodnight.

remember everything and forgive nothing?

I'M BACK!

SECRET is NICE! (:

watched it at genting. the movie was sad and jay is adoreable in the show.

guys who can play piano look attractive and charming. (:

more update when MISS NG send me the photos.

goodnight.

i want to watch that show! anyone?

lets see. one week is over.

working almost everyday and seeing SHIJIA and RYAN almost everyday.

MONDAY; afternoon shift. supper at the opposite prata. the uncle serivce sucks. =P

TUESDAY; full shift w/o SHIJIA and RYAN. supper at macdonald with MARCUS and EILEEN.

WEDNESDAY; afternoon shift and supper at chomp chomp with NGSHIJIA, RYAN and MARCUS. we were having some climbing activity that night. LOL!

THURSDAY; morning shift and kbox with CADY, MAY and SHIJIA.

FRIDAY; off! BJ BBQ! photos shall be up soon i guess. (:

SATURDAY; phone was send to service center. went out with SHIJIA and her KIDS! LOL. after that was movie; alone at msq. screaming and shouting. LOL.

SUNDAY; 1/2morning and walk walk session with ALICIA. (:

PRETTY GOOD WEEK.

morning to nie tmrw. its 215am now. time to sleep.

zzzZZZzzzzz

DONUTS.

they are nice can. lol.

i didn't get to eat the double chocolate. ROARs.

i shall try it out someday.

work was fine. anyway, yesterday was michelle last day.

this coming sunday would be may's turn.

every week someone is leaving.

all good things have to come to an end.

is this the real taste of life.

seeing people leaving your story/ life.

two months in bj might be short but working everyday make the bonding and friendship stronger i guess.

it reminds me of the last day at suntec.

how hard i cried and the unbearable pain that i had the next day after the shop closed.

making a full stop to something is always hard.

we can do nothing but just move on..

thats life. pretty lousy uh. haa.
i will always be a passer-by or stranger in a story.

will i be one in your story? (:

i miss everybody.

girlfriends. topshop/topman suntec. ass-es. the supper clique. my squad friends. all the people.

bloody full shift today. working without voice is miserable.

i am "voice-less" for FIVE LONG days.

better pray hard that i will recover soon.

can't wait for PAY day to come!!

anyway, my maid who had been with my family for three year will be leaving for her country early in the morning.

new maid is coming in the morning.

good things seem to be coming to an end, that include bj.

big big sigh..

good memories usually ends with a sad ending..

anyway its 12plus now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCELYN NEO HUAI QING! (:

THURSDAY; drinking session.

the most sucky one i guess.

all due to all the retards over there.

GERALDINE stay over at my house.

but i was too tired to entertain her. sorry girl. =P

anyway,CHANJUNHON i hope by now you are fine. okay. i am always here. (:

FRIDAY; dinner, it turn out to be the most sucky part of the week.

seriously speaking, i wasd not sad.

i was just disappointed. effort and time were put in but people tend to take it for granted.

so forget it. anyway, we enjoyed cooking process.

potatoe was the nicest. (:

after that was chilling session at liquid kitchen.

some catch up. (:

TODAY; 5 mintues after i start work i met a MOST CHEAPO NEHNEH PERSON.

syrin ask me to take over her as she can't communicate with that customer.

so i went over to help him.

the whole conversation was in mandarin.

he told me his wife wasit is 67cm and he wants to find a shorts which is waist 67cm so i told him our shorts measurement is in inch and not cm.

for god sake he repeated twice that he wants a 67cm waist shorts.

so i checked the measuring tape and i told him it was waist 27 and booldyhell man don't believe me.

NEVER MIND. i squeezed thru the crowd and went to get the measuring tap. fyi; BJ WAS PACKED LIKE SARDINE.

i showed him the tape and explain to him all this.

after explaining to him, he told his friend, i am a DA SHE TOU aka big tongue whereby i can't talk well and say i don't know chinese.

BLOODYHELL!!!!! %^)#*$^*)@#*$

at the moment my anger shoot up to the highest.

NEVER MIND. i continue to serve him.

he said he wants to berms. so i gave it to him.

know what. he BARGAIN with me.

it was a sale item and it costs $19.50 and he say $16.

at the point of time of eyes opened up big and stared at him.

i told him cannot bargain. its fixed price.

i REPEATED $19.50 for THRICE! THRICE!

after that he still have the cheek to say 19 dollars.

after hearing what he said, my anger had reach the limit.

so i said loudly to him.

SIR, this is not a MARKET.

if you want to bargain you can walk over to bugis street to bargain.

HELLO. he think GIORDANO is market and i look like vergtable seller to him. can bargain here and there. bloodyhell.

happy happy bargain here and there.

after that, he tot for a moment and he say he wants the berms and he expect me to bring the berms to the counter for him.

for heaven sake i got so many customer to serve can. furthermore its a saturday!

WTH.

i wonder is he deaf or what. i spoke clear mandarin to him okay.

CHEAPO NEHNEH.

suddenly i feel like going to take driving license. ROAR.

should i? =D

since two of them uploaded this picture. i shall join in too. (:
for the past one week was good.
meet up with yanru for some catch up.
GERALDINE stay over at my house. it was pretty good. (:
swimming session with GERALDINE.
as you can see, for the past one week i had been seeing her almost every single day. haa.
yesterday was tanning and bitching session with CHANJUNHONG and GERALDINE in the morning but there were no sun at all. :/
window shopping at vivio in the afternoon.
night time was some dinner at my house and mini-celebration for my brother's birthday.
today was morning shift at citylink.
tmrw will be full shift.
thursday is coming. morning shift and night activity.
its 10plus now.
time to sleep so that i will have enough energy for tmrw full shift. ROARs.

kbox session on wednesday was great. (:

i meet GERALDINE TAN SHI TING almost everyday.

before kbox was badminton.

wednesday was fun!!

badminton again next week.

thursday was morning shift and CHANJUNHONG came down to find me.
went to walk around and kill our time.
the usual catch up and bitching session. lol.
we drank four tower in total.
the night was good after saying out all the stuffs.
i know what i said okay. lol.
that night was great. (:
thanks guys.

three awesomes. (:

lets see. ages since i blogged. anyway, i am always kicking alive.
guys, i am fine. no worries.
maybe there are better plans for me in future. (:
monday was the best day for the week i guess. lol.
meet up with my two ass-es; CHANJUNHONG and TEHTECKYONG.
had supper at newton circus with them, alicia, yann, jy and friends.
that night was pretty nice. as the three of us have some thinking.
great minds think alike. wheee. (;

anyway, i gonna miss the two of them.
miss seeing their morning look and listening to their morning complaints.
i will miss their company! i bet they will miss me too.
as CHANJUNHONG said in it in his blog. =P
no worries, the three awesome will always have the chance to meet up.
supper, movie, chilling, drinking and ANYTHING!
i am one call away. haa! (:

i'll never forget the memories.
i had never regret being friends with you two.
you guys are definently irreplaceable.

my lunch for yesterday.

anyway, i watched shrek 3 last saturday.

the show was very funny and its nice. (:

monday blues.

off today and i am waiting for my mum to come back so that we can go out together. ROARs.

anyway, today i was kind enough to go help my friend to collect the cheque.

in the end the bloodyhellfatass gave me attitude and say they will contact my friend's father TODAY and they can only issue the cheque TOMORROW.

the bloodyhellfatass emphasised on the word TODAY and TOMORROW as if i don't understand her english.

hello, must you show me attitude.

i am here to collect the cheque.

not here to see your bloody attitudee.

you're the one who is at fault!!!! giving late cheque and you still dare to attitude at me.

YOUBLOODYHELLFATASS!

since you are the one who is working at the human resource office.

can't you be a little bit polite.

can't you talk nicely?

the company pay you to serve and not to show your bloody attitude.

stupidass. i swear i wun go back there anymore.

after scolding i feel great.

lousy company with lousy service and lousy staff.

shall call my mum and get my ass out of the house.

byeee. (:

no promises.

i kinda like this picture. (:

my days are fine.

weekend off but full shift today.

overall is still good.

updating my blog just to indicate i am still kicking alive. lol.

where are my full strength girlfriends gathering.

where are my ass-es gathering.

sigh. kinda miss them man. ):

anyway, time for bed. afternoon shift tmrw.

goodnight.

the world is changing, people are changing and i guess i've changed.

lets see. it had been quite sometime since i update this lousy blogger.
work for this week is quite okay as all the shifts were lapping shift.
wednesday; was 1/2 morning and after that ting and me went down to ling's chalet. hope she like the present we gave her.
as usual, i was so clusmy that my leg made the wire gauze drop on the floor whereby there was food on it. wahaha.
though it rained awhile, everything was fine as me and ting help her with all the things.

thursday; 2 to 6 shift but i finish work at 515pm. (:
went to hosipital to see my grandma. i glad she is looking great now. (:
after that was stingray dinner. whee.
met up with joey and kenneth.
we rode bicycle to jalan kayu for supper.
almost die half way. my leg and butt. haa!

friday; i missed my tanning session with miss shiting.
LOL. i overslept and she expect that. =P sorry ger.
slack around, went home and went to visit my grandma again.
dinner with the family as usual. the eight of us this time round.

saturday; woke up at 8am can!
lp must sign in at 930am which is very very early.
i did something very dumb.
haa. i am always dumb and clumsy. when can i be more alert and not so clumsy. big sigh.
i am always very blur. wth. people are always laughin at me. =\
went to find alicia after work. she was saying; fatfat why are you getting fatter and fatter.
omg. even my aunts are saying that. kill me please.
i am fat like fishball now.

today; meet with ting awhile then met joey at bugis.
went down to marina south for dinner.
omg. i always eat alot whenever i meet joey pear la.
after that went down to grandma house and grandma is home. (:
and i helped my friend to get the information.
i hope he can passed and get it thru. (:
time for bed. morning shift tmrw.
weekend off next week. whee.

misses. ):

working over at bj is fun and nice.

people over there are really nice and good.

food over there are good. LOL!

nothing much to update. am tired.

time to say goodnight.

the shadow seems to be fading away..

FRIDAY NIGHT@ LIQUID KITCHEN
SPIDERMAN 3

went for the interview and it was another pass. start working tmrw.

thats pretty fast. (:

went down to bugis to find miss ng shiJIA.

watched spiderman 3. [like finally! hurray! (:]

the show was kinda dragged but still i like. haa.

after that came back to hougang for sushi buffet with JOCEYLN NEO, NG SHIJIA and JOEY PEAR.

ate to the fullest.

feel like puking man.

message for TEH TECKYONG: hello sir. where is our sakae buffet date after assessment date. you bluff me and i ate to the fullest today but i forgot to take picture for you. :P.

anyway, time to log off soon. need to wake up as early as 8 plus tmrw.

sentosa on wednesday with ting as i am off.

i cannot make it for class gathering on thursday at sentosa. ):

ngshiJIA.LEEHUIYING

thursday; slack the whole day and went out to meet them for singing session till 2am.

i guess they had a hard time calling me cos i got EIGHT missed call. lol.

friday; mahjong-ed at joey's house and went out with his cpp team for their gathering.

drinking and playing heart attack at liquid kitchen and mahjong again at joey's house.

got home at 5am. damn tired.

today; woke up due to chanjunhong's phone call.

answered, replied message and i went back to sleep till 12 plus.

went down to town to meet loi.

initial plan was movie but he got to meet his friend at night so we decided to postpone it. (:

went down to bugis, walked around and went for interview.

it was a pass. thanks shiJIA dearie!

went to tell jason about it. whee. breaks with jason. i am looknig forward to it. (:

then the both of us WALKED from bugis to dhoby.

after that it was home sweet home.

nice weekdays and weekend. (:

i guess this is the more proper photo among the rest.
haa. firstly, blogger is damn screwed up.
super lousy can. awww.
anyway, we carry on with our plan.
we went sentosa though the weather was not really good.
we chatted and somehow it was like a picnic more than tanning.
haa! window-shopped around vivo and town.
seeing the fimiliar faces once again after quite sometime. (:
came home and slack all the way.
bless me with a job real soon.
miss geraldine tan shi ting; for your sake. i update already!
more tanning instead of picnic next week. lol. (:

and still i have the pain i have to carry..

irritating blogger is pain in the ass.

i tried logging in like thousand time whereby my passwords are correct.

wth.

alright.

got home at 4 plus in the morning.

slept, woke up and went down to tampines to meet alicia.

late lunch, chit chat, head to her home to watch show, more talks.

got home not long ago.

had a nice chat with her. loves man. haa. (:

tanning at sentosa with my crazy girlfriend shiting. oops.

haa. more photos soon..

gonna look for a job soon.

i will never have enough of slacking but still, i need an income.

somehow i wish topshop suntec is there for me to return.

sigh.

got to get a new job.

new enviroment and new people.

i will never get to see the shop and the same colleagues again.

misses.

topshop suntec 0496 and topman suntec 7856. (:

i got tired initially. i wish i could end everything without any pain. is it the end or a new begining? (:

GIRLFRIENDs. the story is still going on..

LITTLE MISS BOSSY. (: OOH. THE FUNNY FACEs. LOL!

BLOATED UP. do you need some shower of blessing from us? lol.

meet up with girlfriends at sakura was great and fun.

filled with laughter and joy. haa.

we ate so many plates of main course.

salmon,beef, lamb, chicken and dory fish.

6 to 7 plates of beef and salmon. 1 plate of chicken and lamb and 2 plates of dory fish.

beside that, we ate lots of side dishes. haa.

FULL AND FUN!

taking photos is a MUST after every activity.

photos are very funny!

especially me and ting.

the night ends with a big smile with them around. (:

i love girlfriends!

alright. the blog is getting rusty.

got good news and bad news.

bad news shall come first.

grandma was admitted to the hospital yesterday.

went to visit her. she seems to be abit out of breathe due to her asthma.

hope she will be okay soon.

bless her with better health. (:

GOOD NEWS.

ASSESSMENT IS OVER. FREEDOM IS HERE. (:

meeting girlfriends in an hour time.

time to have a shower and off to sakura dinner with girlfriends.

byeee.

X-MOUSE.

suddenly i miss playing soccer at cage and field.

i want to kick and play soccer again!!!

haa. just some random feelings i guess.

anyway, assessment date is out. 24th APRIL 2007.

god bless that this lazy bum will complete all her works in two weeks time.

after the two weeks, it will be heaven more freedom for her.

work and money gonna roll into my bank account once again.

more chilling sessions.

hope they can make it.

the them and they consists of: ng shijia, joey pear, jocelyn neo, tay chuan xun and hanbin. :)

time to go. goodnight people.

stuffs that i should have let go some time ago, why am i still holding on to it. :(

YUMMY! :)

MY LOVE; cookies and cream. :)

HUI YING.JOCELYN NEO

the amazing FOUR DAYS trip.
it gonna be a damn long post.
thursday; went out to suntec to do work with riddy and joel.
little catch up with ruz at starbucks.
meet up with the usual 401 clique for late night supper and some crappy chit-chat session.
got home at 4plus.

friday; meet up with sham.
ice-cream session. whee :)
went walking around town with him.
he is not feeling happy i guess.
hope he is fine now.
anyway, saw the stranger again.
once again, same situation happened.
we just walk pass one another like a pair of perfect strangers.
meet up with jocelyn neo, joey pear and tay chuan xun for k-session.
after that was supper at upper seragoon road.
god bless this fatty.
huiying had been taking supper like nobody business.
went to chill till 6plus.

saturday; slept at 7am and got up at 1145am to accompany tay chuan xun for interview.
went bugis after that to slack around and wait for hanbin and joey.
the few of them went down to godparent's chalet with me.
the whole mrt journey, we were making so much noise.
laughing like some retards.
thanks to jocelyn neo my godfather was asking so much questions.
after chalet we went back to 401 to meet up shijia dearie for some supper and chilling session.
had some fun walking and meeting up with derrick and friends.

sunday; got home at 3plus this morning and woke up at 645am!!!!
went for tomb sweeping session.
for god sake, godfather was asking me whether he was my boyfriend.
he even volunteered to fetch me and my "boyfriend" to chalet today.
irritating godfather.
went for bak gu teh breakfast with my family.
3 small tables which consists of 11 LEEs family members.
dad is very close with all his brothers and sisters. :)
got home and sleep.
tmrw will be monday.
monday blues.
class from 2pm to 6pm.
after that will be independent week.
gonna rush all my work and 2 more weeks to holiday.
i can't wait for holiday! :)

spending my days with them is fun and filled with laughter. :)
but still, the perfect stranger story will never change.
i love my blog song; blind.
memories are flowing when this song is playing.

THANKS SHIJIA DEARIE! :)

had usual class from 9am till 6pm.

meet up shijia dearie and jocelyn after class.

went for steamboat dinner somewhere near bugis.

the food was nice. :)

they were laughing their ass of at me.

forever laughing at me man.

saying how retard and clusmy i was last night.

went to kbox after dinner.

simply enjoyed the lovely night with them. :)

as for today. skipped external as i got nothing to show her.

going to do my homework soon.

more updates later.

anyway, new song: i don't love you. :)